Emo.......2

Okay, this time I feel that i should write about my feelings since no one visits my blog anyway, except Meng Hon of course. More and more my life gets more suckish I guess. I can't think straight anymore, I went to etention for the first time in my life, my rashers are getting worse, my subjects are getting lower, people are strting to hate me even more and I just can't standit anymore! Someday my life is going to turn upside-down. I never get the courage to show my voice in singing to people because I'm afraid of humiliation. But those who listen to me sing say my voice is amazing. What's more I don't know what is happening to me. I used to be a very quiet boy, but now I'm acting ike a blabbering idiot who can't stop talking. I used to love homework and do many things that i set my mind to but everything I love is falling apart. I still don't know what is happening to me! People shout at me, laugh at me and even beat me when i scratch my head. It is as if I can control it but I cannot. Life is just too hard. Sometimes I feel that I want to say sorry to some people but I never get the chance and I hate to see anyone upset. But slowy that is changing soon I know I shall not even care about anything like that. And I know that some day no one would dare come near me because of me becoming a jerk. But I think if it ever happens people shall remember who I was and not who I am. The happy-go-lucky freindly boy who would help no matter what.

Emo

These days have been.....suckish lately. My rashers are really annoying and currently it is spreading up to my neck and soon my face. I'm not sure if my face would bleed like every other part of my body* but I hope it won't. It's a good thing my medicine is making it less irritating but, however, sooner or later I'm gonna have to stop taking it. So far I've taken 2 injections, I don't know how many foul tasting pills and medicine and a lot of cream, lotion and any other sterile solution or what not. Man my life sucks. Sometimes I just wish that I never had rashers. I mean like, I have not and cannot ever try many things in life like: Hokkien Mee, Laksa, Prawn Noodle or Lobster maybe. Sometimes I regret not tasting all of these before my stupid rashers came along. Almost everyday I sit thinking about it and sometimes even cry. Most of the time I just stay EMO about it and not talk to anyone. I'm not even sure what I would look like in the future because these rashers may spread to my face. I really hate my life!!!!!!!!!

* Except "there" (So don't think sick)>:(

School

So far I feel Secondary School is more awesome than primary school. It's just more fun and better food. Although there are also more jerks, it's also has some of many good friends. I have finally stopped my ways of making fun or bullying girls. Which was very hard indeed. I made a promise to myself that i would never bully another girl in my life ever. I got a new best friend who atually accepts me for who I am. Yup I think this is a fresh start for me.

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